Intimacy is a journey of discovery, a world all its own - and being a non-binary polyamorous person makes that world three-dimensional, delving into the realms of sex, gender, fantasy, and power in breathtaking ways. Curved, and crisscrossed roads of experimentation and exploration. As a 45-year-old polyamory blogger from Turkey, my journey encompasses all these aspects, echoing a tableau of diverse experiences in ways that surprise even me. Today, another tale from my book, one that paints the corners of fantasy roleplay and dominance.
Oh, the thrilling swirl of polyamory, an artful dance with partners playful like butterflies on a gentle breeze, yet commanding the passion and strength of an Eber storm. On a fated weekend, I found myself immersed in the world of fantasy roleplay, stepping away from the monotony of the tangible world, evading the constraints of accepted scripts and norms. A place where my partner and I designed our own narrative, stepping into characters that didn’t carry our everyday labels. A universe far from the sensorial isolation of straightforward voyeurism that free porn often offers. We were engaging in a tale of a sovereign and a conscript, an engagement of dominance and submission. It was a thrilling contrast to the democracy we shared in our relationship. The air crackled with an understanding, a symbiotic flow of wanting and being wanted, commanding and surrendering.
As the fantasy unfurled, clutching my partner in my arms, I felt my heart beat synchronously with theirs, an intense rhythm that spoke volumes of trust. The orchestration was impressively seamless, but the dynamic was what intrigued me most. I was their sovereign, but their surrender was their choice, their power. Their submission was their dominance - It was erotic, nuanced; it was a complicated dynamic that awakened me to the different shades of power. And oh, how liberating it was, breathing life into a persona that was so distant from who I was in my everyday life, yet so intrinsically a part of my spirit. This dance, this use of power for pleasure, those avatars gave us strength – the sovereign’s strength of control, the conscript's strength in surrender. In exploring the power dynamics of role-playing, we learned more deeply and intimately about each other’s desires and boundaries.
There's such power in stepping out of reality for a while and playing around with fantasy, understanding the shades of dominance and submission, breaking free from the cookie-cutter forms of expression we're often restricted to. A stark realization was how even in frames of dominance and submission, there is a blurring of the edges where the power truly lies. The exploration was raw, visceral, and enlightening in ways that made me confront the norms I’d taken for granted. I can't help but reflect on the fluidity and complexity of my relationships and how they've educated me on the maze of human desire. These experiences are not just about lust and satisfaction; they're about exploring the infinite dimensions of our identity, our desires, our love, our power. And it’s a journey I’m truly thankful for.  |
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